This question is bothering me for last few weeks. What is Home? Is it a house with four walls? Or is it the people you live with? If the people also move out of the house will it make any change? Does it bother you less? I am living outside my city from last 2 years. I moved there with the person I loved the most. But still something is missing. It's not like that my new home or city is not treating me well. It welcomes me wholeheartedly.
It gives me warm hugs and blesses me with rains. Even as I write this, so many beautiful faces flash in my mind. Although they are now far away from my sight. Whenever my flight touches down on the land of my hometown, I feel that I am free here. Of course, there's another level of excitement rushing through my mind and body to meet the known faces, but the fragrance of the city makes me feel alive. It makes me feel that I don't need to wear a mask of professionalism or need any kind of filtration. Because the city knows it all.
The roads, the flyover, metro, footbridge, buses, yellow taxis, and trams - all of the modes know every single story which you never shared with anyone. The hours you spent leaning on the window pane, brooding over life, trust me, they know it all. The city knows when you first cried for a balloon. When you roamed around the city holding your parents' hands. When you were in awe looking at the decoration of Durga Puja pandal or the big Christmas tree in front of Park Street. When you got scared to look at the swarm of people in the maidan to enjoy the book fair. And you held your mother's finger tightly. The first school picnic, the first family tour, the first fight with friends - this city knows all stories. My teenage rebellion phase, scrimmage with my sister, bunking classes in college, and sneaking out with friends to roam around Victoria Memorial - my city knows my secrets.
When I cried after the first heartbreak, my city of joy soothed me. When I didn't want to cry in front of anyone, my city knew my safe shelter. I vividly remember the day without saying anything to anyone, I took a metro ride and reached St. Paul Cathedral church just to cry in front of Jesus. There was no one in between us. Jesus knows my sorrows.
When I finally found the man of my life, the city knew the first heartbeat I felt. The feeling of holding his hands and roaming around the city freely, falling in love, and getting married here - the city knows it all.
My city, my secret holder, and my confidant - I love you. I miss you. I badly want to come back.
You are my home my house my city.
One day I will come back for sure, even when I may not be as young, I envision myself sitting in a coffee house, recalling all the cherished memories we've shared. I can never forget. Despite not offering many amenities, your comforting embrace is unmatched. You are my sanctuary, my abode, my city.